Love

Sunday 25.01.09

Why is it so easy to fall in love with someone? Sometimes it gradually happens, sometimes you don't even notice it's happened. I can vaguely remember thinking I was falling in love with James, i was so scared of getting involved in something only to want 'out' soon after. Thank heavens i took that risk and here i am nearly 18mths later and couldn't imagine my life without him. So much for me being a commitment phobe - it's all James' fault! LOL Every girl at some point wants to get marriet, etc. But up until now the thought of it ever actually happening was scary! Now i can't imagine my life going in any other direction. I have plenty of time to get married but one thing is for sure, i know im happy, faithful, in love and nothing will change that. I've found the most amazing and fantastiv man in the world and there's no letting go! Sometimes life gets som mundane and boring but i'd never change it. The biggest thing for me is how much Kailee loves James. He'll always be her daddy, even if DNA doesn't show that. He dotes over her like his own and she's a bg daddys girl thats for sure! One of the many things Jake misses out on and we gain. I don't know how one can turn their back on their own child but Kailee has gained a daddy who chose to be there for her - not just one that is obliged. We got lucky when we found James - Praise God he messaged me online that day! When thinking about it, i'm the luckiest girl in the world and all cuz i have James beside me each and every day!

I love you James! xxx