He told her :s

Monday 02.03.09

So James told his mother i'm pregnant and she didnt explode and yell and scream as we both feared. She just said "oh well" as far as James told me. I dont know whether to be relieved or worried. Worried that she's quietly got something in her head, worried she'll make a public scene when she sees me next, worried she'll try and fight me for my child - i know she doesn't think highly of me, but if she tries she'll have one fight on her hands. I won't hand over any child of mine. Hopefully all this worrying is for nothing tho, and she's just going to accept it and move on. James is going to be supportive while i'm pregnant and this is going to be OUR baby. As for her seeing this child, there's gonna need to be some serious apologies given to me before that happens. I'll NEVER stop James being near his child, but i wont have her disrespect me and want to see her grandchild. I've seen the way she is in front of both James' and my kids.... i dont want that for this baby. It seriously scares me.

Now James on the other hand has been great the past few days. We've been talking, and getting along well. It's an improvement, and hopefully the trip away did him a world of good. He seems less stressed and less shocked about having another baby. So hopefully things are looking up for us - not getting back together, but thats ok. All that matters is we're doing things for this baby together. I couldn't ask for much more than that :D I can't wait til my next scan in a couple wks, when James can finally be there to see the baby. Finally we'll be able to see a bit more than a blob and even see more than just a flicker of a heartbeat lol The first trimester goes soooooooo slow, but i'm over 1/2 way already, it needs to just go faster lol